And I thought this was what I’d been waiting for… This look and furtive smiles Thrown carelessly at my wuthering heart My first love was beautiful And will never age But it wont last either Because I was late again I plucked the flower that was tended by the strings of another soul I don’t like all these tears And all the silence encapsulated in tiny bags of suffocation And tied together by the strongest ropes of love I wont make it again.. I wont color myself no more This music is also killing me’ And why amidst all of you…I’m so alone Just why cant someone look at this side And save me … I took it all this easily I didn’t tie time to my hair I didn’t do anything worthwhile Because you all were there And lethargy was a convenience few could afford. Oh how many times I told you all that I was right That I should be left to the strumming of my own soul That I needed none to fill any void that didn’t exist. And now I’m left barren and my smiles also aborted my very being And when my child smiled at me, I didn’t pick her up. You my brother, were my breath And I didn’t even talk to you when you sought me out from the maddening crowd Because I thought I would cry out my woes And paint you blue. But I do love you so And when I do leave please know that you all will be leaving with me I’m leaving nothing behind Except the flower I plucked For I want to laugh with mirth again From the very depths of my cracked throat Its been long. I need to go For love is a lie, I know now And I don’t want to live a lie…